I occasionally get on here and scan some of my favorite bloggers for ideas and the inspiration I take from their thoughts but I hadn't written on my blog in ... how long had it been?
I went back to look .... Oops. Only almost two years? Hmmm.
So I started thinking about the blog and why I started it and wondered if I was going to choose to continue it, delete it ... what is the future for this blog?
I think I originally started it to reach out to others like me, as I felt lost. I felt like a throw back from another century. Everyone I have known my entire life, grew up wanting to be a ___ (fill in the blank) when they grew up. I wanted to be a mom. I learned not to share that very young because it wasn't an acceptable answer. As an adult, I felt a little alone and unsure, I think, and I started this as part diary and place to vent and partly to reach out to others.
Then I found other blogs that inspired me and found the joy of other people's ideas and inspiration and forgot about it. Now as I look back I realize my original idea and reason for starting it is no longer an issue at all. I think as I grow older I grow more comfortable in my skin.
I am doing a little online work to help contribute to the family finances but that doesn't make me less of a SAHM and it also wasn't a choice that was made in order to justify my decision to stay home. It was a choice that was made because an opportunity fell into my lap that would be enjoyable, that would be a learning experience and would be enriching. Of course adding a few more dollars to the bank account never hurts! We are working on a debt free goal and are getting pretty close which this has very much contributed to!!!
So now what is the future for this blog? I don't know. I am updating it today although I'm not sure anyone reads it, because I am someone who hates projects that are left hanging and seeing something last updated two years ago is annoying to me. Will I post again? What purpose will it serve? What topics will I cover?
Hmmm. Time will tell.
And if you are actually reading this, I apologize for the monotony and rambling! :-)
