What was this about?

I occasionally get on here and scan some of my favorite bloggers for ideas and the inspiration I take from their thoughts but I hadn't written on my blog in ... how long had it been?
I went back to look .... Oops. Only almost two years? Hmmm.

So I started thinking about the blog and why I started it and wondered if I was going to choose to continue it, delete it ... what is the future for this blog?
I think I originally started it to reach out to others like me, as I felt lost. I felt like a throw back from another century. Everyone I have known my entire life, grew up wanting to be a ___ (fill in the blank) when they grew up. I wanted to be a mom. I learned not to share that very young because it wasn't an acceptable answer. As an adult, I felt a little alone and unsure, I think, and I started this as part diary and place to vent and partly to reach out to others.
Then I found other blogs that inspired me and found the joy of other people's ideas and inspiration and forgot about it. Now as I look back I realize my original idea and reason for starting it is no longer an issue at all. I think as I grow older I grow more comfortable in my skin.

I am doing a little online work to help contribute to the family finances but that doesn't make me less of a SAHM and it also wasn't a choice that was made in order to justify my decision to stay home. It was a choice that was made because an opportunity fell into my lap that would be enjoyable, that would be a learning experience and would be enriching. Of course adding a few more dollars to the bank account never hurts! We are working on a debt free goal and are getting pretty close which this has very much contributed to!!!

So now what is the future for this blog? I don't know. I am updating it today although I'm not sure anyone reads it, because I am someone who hates projects that are left hanging and seeing something last updated two years ago is annoying to me. Will I post again? What purpose will it serve? What topics will I cover?
Hmmm. Time will tell.
And if you are actually reading this, I apologize for the monotony and rambling! :-)

This could be trouble!

Um ... I think I'm in trouble. I started this as a sort of online diary. I knew nothing about blogging so I started looking for other blogs, people who have similar interests, etc.
What I ended up with was a million projects I want to start!
You are all so crafty and talented!

I have a tendency to occasionally bite off more than I can chew. I think I need to look through this huge list of projects I want to start and prioritize.
Will it be something I think I can easily pull off? If it's too complicated I may get overwhelmed and frustrated and I feel that all too often. This should be enjoyable.
Next, is it something affordable? If it's from "on hand" materials or things I can pick up that are inexpensive, I can handle it. If I'm going to sink a bunch of money into it, there's no sense in starting it.
Lastly, how does this fit into my life? Will it add to our home or add clutter? Is it something we need which can be made more cheaply than purchased?

Hmmmm. Off to look at my list! :-)

Taking the leap!

Well, I'm taking the leap into blogging. I have always felt I was born in the wrong era!
When my friends were deciding they wanted to be doctors, lawyers or Indian chiefs, I felt lost. I wanted to be a Mom and a wife. I wanted to have a beautiful home ... not fancy or expensive, just warm and inviting and a wonderful home.
I wanted to make dinner and have my husband come in the door after a long day with a kiss and a meal waiting on him!
I wanted lovely children who would come home from school to a fresh cookie, some milk and some help with their homework.
It isn't something that's "normal" in this day and age. I felt weird. I wanted to be Donna Reed. What was wrong with me???

Yet, I got the husband and the kids and I did stay home. My husband will proudly tell anyone that will listen how his wife saves more money than most wives make.
How? I cut coupons. I make dinners instead of ordering in or eating out after a long day at work.
I don't pay for child care. I provide it myself.
I don't pay for office appropriate clothing or the gas to get me there and back.
I don't pay for house cleaning. I do it myself.

Am I weird? Maybe. I am not wearing pearls and a house dress while I clean and cook. I am not denying myself a computer (obviously) or modern technology, although I do see it as something to be limited.
Maybe this is all weird, or maybe I'm just part of a minority but I am doing what I love and it works for me.

What I am NOT is lazy. I work very hard at my job. I am a wife, mother, cook, cleaning lady, child care provider, accountant, nurse, vet (cats and a dog!), and so much more. I do not receive a weekly check but I do save a ton of money and I am very well paid in living my dream and receiving love and the joy of seeing my family thrive from our choices.

I don't know if my job is a dying one but I plan to live it as long as possible and hope to find others out there who enjoy the same "job". Anybody out there???